When I planned to write this post I had lost 4 pounds and felt so good with myself. Today I made the terrible mistake of weighting myself again and found out that I had been betrayed by the scale. Losing weight while breastfeeding is possible but not for me yet. Let me tell you instead what I can lose while breastfeeding:
I can lose the patience with myself when trying to eat healthy. We don’t have the pleasure to have a chef cooking for us like maybe the celebrities do, so that means, that if I want to eat something nice, healthy and original I will have to cook it myself, or ask Sam to do it. Two kids and a house to run seems like enough to me most of the days. So basic meals are usually the ones that run our menu.
I can lose track of time while breastfeeding. You don’t know which time you started, not sure what time you finish, the only thing you’re sure of is that you have a happy baby at the end. I love his smile and giggles when he is done. I love that I can provide for him, that what I have is more than enough to make a strong baby out of him.
I lose some sleep as well. My baby boy sleeps quite well though so I only usually wake up a couple of times at night. Very different to the first child, when I used to wake up every hour or every two hours. With him is just once around midnight, next one early morning…
Unfortunately for me, I lose hair also. It didn’t happen with J, but it’s happening this time. I had never experienced something like that before, not even in the most stressful moments of my life. It was quite shocking in the beginning, scary I must admit. I still struggle with it sometimes but I bought a special shampoo that is supposed to help nourish the scalp a bit more than the usual one. We’ll see…
There are many good websites out there that can tell you how to lose weight while breastfeeding. Let me tell you what I’m doing that hopefully it will have a good outcome after a while:
- I stopped drinking fizzy drinks.
- I’m doing 15 minutes daily on my stationary bicycle.
- I’m “trying” to cut down sweets and junk food [OK. I’m not actually, but I thought I should write it down in case you wanted to follow these guidelines, it will be good for you! 😛 ]
- I’m taking breastfeeding vitamins. I took them for the first 2 months and didn’t notice how much they were helping me until I stopped taking them. I’m back on track now and I wish I hadn’t stopped.
And finally, I’m trying to not get too discouraged with my current weight and appearance. Many times, how I feel doesn’t reflect how I look. It’s like when you have some food on your teeth and you keep smiling and nobody says anything to you. Well, sometimes, a song that I love is playing on the radio or wherever and I start dancing it at home, and I remember my old-self, the one that used to go out with her friends and dance until the sun would come out, I feel good, I feel really good until I see myself in the mirror and notice that the size 8 body is not there anymore.
It’s hard to overcome that shocking moment, not sure if you’ve gone through something similar, but when that happens I say to myself that I have two options: 1. to keep feeding that feeling with more discouraging thoughts that won’t make me any good or 2. turn the page and move on. Think from a more practical perspective and keep doing what makes me feel right. I know and I hope that at the end, what makes me feel right will make me look alright not only to the eyes of others but most especially to my own eyes. Because as the phrase says:
“Beauty is always in the eyes of the beholder”
May we all look ourselves and see the beauty within us, regardless of our weight, regardless of our status, regardless of our own fears and frustrations.