You know when you find one of those super cute pictures on Pinterest or other social networks announcing a new member in the family? … Well, that’s kind of what we had in mind and this has been the outcome. A selection of pictures among many that have nothing to do with that perfect portrait where lighting and outfits have been carefully chosen, where everything seems to fit “naturally perfect”. Our reality has been filled with many tries of “Julia, please! smile! Julia, please, don’t cover your face! Nooo, you just covered the date!! to announce that yes, indeed, we are pregnant for the second time! In February we will welcome this so much expected new baby girl or boy.
To be honest, not everything in life is made of these perfect pictures we see on others’ profiles, adverts, etc.. the grass seems always greener on the other side, right? For us, we got married in 2010 and we always had the thought of 4 as the ideal number for children, two years apart if possible. Julia came not much longer we had decided to start searching for a baby. Those feelings of excitement and fear will always be kept in our minds. When she turned two we decided it was the time to look for the second one. Same excitement, less fear this time…but as months went by they became feelings of frustration and dissapointment when nothing happened. After a year or so we went to see the Doctor with the idea of “ok, if there’s something wrong, let’s fix it!” Fortunately for us, nothing was wrong, but is that type of “fortune” that makes you wonder “then, what’s wrong?!”
We are a believer family , as we have shared in previous posts, and that’s why when something doesn’t turn up the way we expect we try to avoid the thought of “Why us? or blaming God”; instead, we try to delve ouserselves into our beliefs and search for the answers we need. In our pursuit, we’ve found that sometimes you don’t know why certain things happen to you but you can learn many lessons along the way. We decided to improve our physical health by exercising more and having more of a balanced diet. We decided to improve our spiritual health by searching for the patience and encouragement we lacked in the past. By reading similar stories from other mums, especially mysef, and studying the scriptures with real intent individually and as family…
Finally, months continued passing by, and with them many changes… Some of them turned out to be quite difficult challenges and during one of those toughest weeks, when I was feeling emotionally down, not because of this issue in particular but for other things that surrounded us, I decided to take a pregnancy test. With a bit of self-controlled excitement thinking this could be the time!, I took it and yes! a POSITIVE result! It was the fresh water we needed! The light showing little by little in the midst of so many hardships. For us, it was the Lord telling us “I remember you, now it’s the time” The truth is He had never forgotten us. When we were in the middle of such uncertainty we always used to think “when it happens, we will share our experience with others” just so they can see that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, that you can find happiness even in the darkest times and that life is indeed full of imperfect pictures, but those are the ones that make it special and unique, different to all the rest.
** We dedicate this post to all those wonderful couples that have been a great example to us because their search has been much longer and harder than ours and for some of them, still is.
Costa Tuesta Family